Paul Tristram is a Welsh writer who has poems, short stories, sketches and photography published in many publications around the world, he yearns to tattoo porcelain bridesmaids instead of digging empty graves for innocence at midnight; this too may pass, yet.
“In this case, I must insist
That the defendant, your Honour,
Is subjected to a life sentence
Of Manic Depressive Disorder!”
…only perpetuates itself,
deeper and darker, inwards
with each un-fresh stab at it.
Dragging you further,
slowly but surely,
away from the light
of common sense and reason.
blinding you to goals
and chaining you
to helpless melancholy.
Too much self-examination
does no good at all.
It merely halts you
living in the now.
It is a negative, completely.
whilst to fix things
you need a positive.
You are using up all of your
precious time and resources
digging in the wrong place, mate?
He’s Done With The Naysayers And Doubters
He has everything that he needs
in his little makeshift boat,
aptly called ‘The Adventurer’.
There’ll be sharks up ahead, of course
but he’s learnt some nifty manoeuvring skills
in his previous incarnations.
A wetted middle-finger for the breeze,
an optimistic telescope
and a full tank of hope
should see him ‘round those jagged rocks
with their gossiping Sirens of nonsense.
‘There’s calm, blue sailing waters out there,
I just know’ are the words whittled
into the bargepole which he uses constantly
to no longer touch those Bastards with.
So with a packed lunch
of sardines, ham and determination
*(Because everyone knows that the best thing
about being a Pirate is ‘Ham Night’)*
He’s off into the distant horizon
to find ‘Elsewhere’
because he’s heard a rumour
that it’s the best place to try your luck at.
*from the movie ‘The Pirates! An Adventure With Scientists’*
Look Beyond The Surface…They Don’t Want Forgiveness
Just A Way Back In To Finish Off The Job Properly
You have a temper and moods just like everyone
but your heart and soul are golden and true
and that’s what they hate about you.
Your fire and magic are real,
it exposes their fakeness,
making their whole charade ridiculous.
That’s why they keep shark circling
and wolf knocking upon your attention’s door.
To murder the light, snuff out the bright brilliance
and squeeze every last drop of
‘the thing which naturally escapes them’ from sight.
Your downfall, unfortunately, is the only sure way
of them ever being released from Envies living hell.
I Only Invited You Around So I Could Refuse You Entry
To say ‘No’ to you is almost perfect!
To turn you away and close the door
(Both physically and metaphorically)
gives me goose bumps and head rushes.
It’s scarily sexual and the only thing
that quiets (For a spell) the jagged,
sickly waves and storms of jealous
hatred which rage through my fractured core
like a forest fire within a box of Swan Vesta.
The thought of you disappointed
is a balm of the sweetest kind.
An accident, violence or other such trouble?
and I have to take to my bed hysterically
in squirming fits of throbbing ecstasies.
Every breath you take is a Treason,
each swaggering step a new Blasphemy.
That cute smile and those twinkling eyes
aaaarrgghh…I’ve bitten too hard again.
I am nearing the end of my tether,
surely God will see reason and understand.
(End question mark, removed by Author)
…And Down They Fall
It’s so nice when Karma’s got your back
and they start tripping over, one and all.
Some harder than others
because some people
seem to want to outdo themselves
on the nasty front these days.
If you’ve got the Strength to step sideways
out of Learnt, Predictable Behaviour.
Put a stranglehold upon your Temper
rather than around a filthy, lying throat.
You will be rewarded for not opening
the doorway onto that darker, Soul path.
You reap what you sow…
you cannot hide from the Eternal Watchers.
Hearts of Black receive Black,
Minds of Treachery attract such Treachery
and then there’s also the V.A.T. and Taxes.
Be careful with your Anger
and also with your Generosity
for both can be chess pieced against you.
And though the way through Life be Crooked
sometimes…You really don’t have to be Also.
I dot the I’s, cross the T’s
every experience with a razor.
My thighs are like maps
of my emotional soul.
I Groove release & comfort,
the sting warms up
the inner cold.
And there is nothing
quite so beautiful
on a January morning
than being wheeled away
from the other girls
in the dormitory.
Over to the medical unit
to be stitched up carefully
by Nurse Karen.
Young, pretty, smelling sweetly
of rose blossoms & ‘no issues’
Actually calling me
by my Christian name
and smiling like summertime
all over my wretched,
self-butchered, artistic frame.
Underestimate Me, Go On… Walk Right Into My Trap
I am only quiet because I am watching,
you slide cocky
around comfortable circles.
There’s a carelessness
to predictable patterns.
Cutting with the grain
will be delightfully easy.
A tumble-down’s a-coming,
Puppet Master’s unaware
of what’s going on behind his back.
There’s a guillotine,
at the starting gate,
primed and vibrating
to the strains of ‘I Told You So’s’.
No one gave you enough rope,
you wove it all by yourself.
Publically and with an ignorant smirk
upon your ‘Small Picture’ boat race.
Figure Out Your Trigger
Your as deep as the ocean, aren’t you?
I prefer shallow people really,
you know exactly where you are with them.
They have nothing to hide behind
except sandcastle lies and idiot grins.
Oh well, it just means I’ll have to work harder.
I can see it instantly in your clever eyes
that you don’t accept my insincere,
smiling, fawning friendship…
shame, it’s the best trick in my bag.
Well, that and my Boasting Ridiculousness
but you turned your head away at that.
I need inside of your machinery,
to poke and prod at what makes you tick.
There are weak spots and vulnerabilities
(Ooh, I do believe I’m starting to drip!)
hidden away under that confident armour.
I’m on a mission to Uriah Heep
the many connecting threads of your brilliance
and Guy Fawkes them publically to the ground.
Drinking Next Door In The Loser’s Arms
Some are regular fixtures
been patronizing the bar for decades.
Dusty as old attic pipework,
happy to never venture
out into the sunshine again.
Others stop by on occasion,
every few years or so.
Taking a rest, almost,
in between chapters.
and shuffling heartache away.
The Fleeter’s and the Rager’s,
not quite so deep, are the loudest.
But without them there would be
no electricity in the place.
The view from the Tavern’s windows
are as bleak as you need them to be.
There is no ‘Warm Welcome’
but you have been saved a place
that’s always waiting
just one argument or small disaster away.